updating...

wow this is difficult...the whole updating thing! so i thought i'd be creepy and put up a pic of my adorable ball of fluff...isnt he sweet with his wii mote!?



so i'm intensely job searching...its a fun experience...planning on a small vaca to RI in june...just in time for ho bags b-day...





love you sis!

thats about it...yay for pics!

Changes in States of Being

So much has happened in four months, that i should prolly update what has happened to me to my 3 readers. I got a job, turned 22, quit the job, moved out of my boyfriends apartment (don't worry we're still together, and in fact he's now my fiance), moved in with my friend robin in Olive Branch, MISSISSIPPI(!). I'm getting a kitty this week, hopefully a new job as well. I am feeling angsty because i miss cj and can't sleep without him, so i look a bit crazed right now. never thought i'd love someone so much...thats an odd feeling, definitely.

my thoughts go out to people in the northeast...my mother and sister are currently marrooned in NYC last i checked, and i hope you all can swim, judging from the flood warnings.

I miss graham...i'm considering buying him a plane ticket down here because i miss his face, the dumb shmuck. he's still my main gay...just he shares the place with someone else now.

I saw an excellent drag show the other night...it was 80's night, so you KNOW i was rockin it old school...

I get knocked down...

yes, yes, i know, its a song about communism...but it was sold to the mindless masses as a drinking song, so there. and speaking of drinking...that's been my main activity lately...lots and lots of drinking...friday night, saturday night and yes, even tuesday night i managed to get myself closer and closer to personal oblivion...all because they sell beer at grocery stores. next to the ice cream. the bastards. in addition to killing my liver and my brain and my kidneys too, i am also killing my heart by getting, i kid you not, fatter. as we speak, i am investigating the slim in 6 program, the ab lounge, and aa. thats my story...i'll add a picture too!

Everyone I have ever loved...

Is married, gay, or dead...not totally true...but i have a common straight girl lament...why are all the hot boys gay? its just not fair...I love CJ, don't get me wrong, but whenever i see a pretty boy with a nice smile, good hair, and good musculature, i have to sigh sadly because i know in my heart that he's prolly gay...its a sad thing...but i've found out some pretty awful things about growing up gay down here...a friend of CJ's couldn't come out while he was in high school because they would have expelled him...i remember being outraged in my high school just because they couldn't bring their dates to prom...(ps no worries...the fag hags helped them get around that)...it;s really just not that accepted down here, which seems so unfair...my friend, X, came out to me one of my first nights here, but we can't talk about it in front of his other friends because he could lose his job and such...(one of his friends parental figure is his boss)... so this is a sucky revelation to me...i love my gays, and to see them have to be silent bothers me...

I don't know what to title this entry because I don't know what's going on...I feel like a spectator to my own life right now...I know I should be concerned about the job thing, ie not having one, but i just don't care. at all. I don't really have anything to say at all either...I feel a little blank...

right round baby...

I saw the most awful thing on the news last night. It was awful enough to have nightmares about. Some woman microwaved her baby to death. The poor defenseless 3 week old baby, that she carried in her stomach for 9 months. I'm pro choice. If you think you can't handle a baby, you have an abortion, or you contact an adoption agency. You don't microwave your child. Whomever this woman is, she's a sick bitch, and she has a lot of issues. There is help everywhere, for everyone, whether or not you can afford it. If you don't want your child, you should call social services, not kill it with a kitchen appliance...

Sometimes Love don't feel like it should...

so we are currently not really friendly in apartment 5.

i won't get into the details...but i cleaned every inch i could, while he sat on his ass not writing a paper he was supposed to be done with, made him cookies to feel better...then its bed time...

selfish bastard...fill in the blanks....