Strange

I have some strange news...i'll be back in RI for 2 months...i don't know how i feel about this...but its for school so thats a good thing...i don't know what else to say about this...

College fund

i think i could pay for college if other people donated money. i'm contemplating it. if 20 people a day gave me 5 dollars each every day for a month, thats a year of school for me. so i want to do this. i just need to know how. so if anyone has suggestions, let me know...and refer people to my blog. i will write more often if more people read this...see how i'm helping you?

in a dollhouse

i live in a dollhouse. seriously. my housemate has stuffed animals, barbie dolls, you name it she has it. and they are everywhere. she's 30 something and has toys still. she is driving me crazy accoding to cj, because i bend over backwards to keep her from getting angry with me.

thats really all i have to say about anything.

oh, i have a headache.

In Oceanic Ruminations

a small disclaimer, i am not suicidal, just perhaps a little macabre.

I went driving with kate last night and we ended up going to the overlook in weekapaug. the timing of it induced me to say something i've always thought but creep people out with when i bring it up.

When i die, I have two preferences for how it should go down. drowning or hypothermia. both are frantic struggles at first, i'm sure, but then the peace after must be wonderful. And in all honesty, thats my life wish...peace. personal peace at least. i want to resolve all personal issues, make everyone i know happy, and then i can go, just slip away into nothing.

of course this is a gradual process...not planning on leaving the mortal coil for many many years, and i have those many many years to apologize, resolve, and otherwise absolve myself of my many sins.

and now i'm done with my depressing entry. my apologies for freaking you all out, but i'm vaguely sure everyone must think about these things...

updating...

wow this is difficult...the whole updating thing! so i thought i'd be creepy and put up a pic of my adorable ball of fluff...isnt he sweet with his wii mote!?



so i'm intensely job searching...its a fun experience...planning on a small vaca to RI in june...just in time for ho bags b-day...





love you sis!

thats about it...yay for pics!

Changes in States of Being

So much has happened in four months, that i should prolly update what has happened to me to my 3 readers. I got a job, turned 22, quit the job, moved out of my boyfriends apartment (don't worry we're still together, and in fact he's now my fiance), moved in with my friend robin in Olive Branch, MISSISSIPPI(!). I'm getting a kitty this week, hopefully a new job as well. I am feeling angsty because i miss cj and can't sleep without him, so i look a bit crazed right now. never thought i'd love someone so much...thats an odd feeling, definitely.

my thoughts go out to people in the northeast...my mother and sister are currently marrooned in NYC last i checked, and i hope you all can swim, judging from the flood warnings.

I miss graham...i'm considering buying him a plane ticket down here because i miss his face, the dumb shmuck. he's still my main gay...just he shares the place with someone else now.

I saw an excellent drag show the other night...it was 80's night, so you KNOW i was rockin it old school...

I get knocked down...

yes, yes, i know, its a song about communism...but it was sold to the mindless masses as a drinking song, so there. and speaking of drinking...that's been my main activity lately...lots and lots of drinking...friday night, saturday night and yes, even tuesday night i managed to get myself closer and closer to personal oblivion...all because they sell beer at grocery stores. next to the ice cream. the bastards. in addition to killing my liver and my brain and my kidneys too, i am also killing my heart by getting, i kid you not, fatter. as we speak, i am investigating the slim in 6 program, the ab lounge, and aa. thats my story...i'll add a picture too!